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[Aug. 28th, 2008|08:57 pm] |
I just got done listening to Barack Obama's acceptance of his nomination speech and I have to say that I am thoroughly moved. I mean, I have been a supporter of him for a long time now, but tonight's speech just reaffirmed every reason why he has had my support for the long 18 months that has been his campaign.
Starting with the more superficial things, I have to commend his ability to give an incredibly powerful and well-delivered speech. The eloquence with which he presents himself is amazing and the support that resonates from his always lovely-looking family is beautiful. He and his family just fit the part.
And as for the real important aspects of his speech, I have never felt more confident in a candidate in my short life. Everyone knows that his main selling point is change, but some question whether that is more than just rhetoric. I now argue with anyone that has said this to the fullest extent. After watching this, no one can doubt that he is willing to do everything in his power to make this campaign and hope for change truly occur.
He is a man that has not had everything handed to him from the start, like me, he was raised in a father-less house, depending on his mother and grandfather for the guidance that has lead him to his present success. I can identify with that on so many levels. He has made a success out of himself and made everything work out despite his beginning. I mean look at these feats that he has already made. Seeing what he has come from and what he has made happen shows me that there is no way to doubt that this nation, despite its present condition, has the chance to truly come out of this black hole that Bush has put us in.
Obama truly understands what it is like to come from the lower to middle-class. He has witnessed it first-hand. Being that the majority of this United States is of this classification, it is important that we elect someone that stands to help those who help themselves, to help those that try succeed and not experience the feelings of failure and attempt to make that inadequacy complex nearly nonexistent. He will work to lower taxes for the people that actually need it and provide jobs for the hundreds of thousands of unemployed Americans. He will work to make sure that the jobs created cannot be outsourced and that these jobs won't go to those that have illegally come here.
And though he will work against ILLEGAL immigration, he wants to work with everyone to ensure that the citizenship process is not just an impossibly long enigma of a process.
He wants to end our dependency on foreign oil and instead of funding off-shore drilling, invest in alternative energy sources.
He wants to make sure that EVERY SINGLE child has an equal opportunity at receiving the best education possible. He knows that he would be NOWHERE without the education that he was able to receive and wants to ensure that that is a possibility for everyone.
He wants to enable the millions of Americans without health insurance to receive the help necessary to change this fact and lower the premiums for those that are lucky enough to have this insurance.
But most of all, he wants to make this a better, UNITED America.
He wants change.
He wants hope from the American people.
He wants to make this election about the American people, not himself.
And I want him.
Obama and I agree on a multitude of issues, but most of all we agree that we don't want the same failed policies of the last 8 years to continue for the next four years or beyond.
WE ARE NOT WILLING TO TAKE A 10% CHANCE AT CHANGE!
OBAMA '08-its your future... |
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[Jul. 4th, 2008|12:12 pm] |
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lets start this with the more superficial problem; the need for a job. i have been searching since the day i got out of school, yet with our present day economy, finding a job is depressingly next to impossible. i need something to occupy my time. i am sitting on my ass every day, doing nothing productive. this is something that is so very difficult for me. i cant waste my time in such a way. i have applied to nearly if not more 10 places, yet i haven't heard anything from any of them. i could look at this as something against me, but i know, without sounding cocky or pretentious, that i am not a bad catch for the employment industry. it just seems that our lovely bush has ran this country's economy into a bottomless whole of despair for all americans.
this leads me to think even more about the future that lies ahead. i will never understand why those around me complain about our present situation, then go on to say that they are not registered to vote. granted i know that with our system, voting isn't everything, but i do know that it is one small way to try to make a difference, even if it is a minute alteration to our world. everyone needs to take advantage of it and not just count someone out out of fear. OBAMA08
now on to the stuff that is lurking deep within me. i always knew that going away and leaving the comfort zone that is high school would change a lot of things, but i truly believed that somehow, my faith in those closest to me would overcome the challenges that we would face. apparently i was wrong. now there are some that have proved to me that we are forever, but i am also slowly losing some that mean so much to me. though this is sad, one would think that a person would be able to somehow save whatever you have, but when only one party is putting in effort, that is impossible. so sadly, i must admit that i will probably involuntarily lose someone that has really meant a lot to me. i hate that.
luckily, college has been good to me. i have met so many people that i can honestly say have truly formed a bond with me in that short year that is stronger than others that have been building for years. these people are coming in with no previous thoughts about who i am and they take you in without discretion. i know that these people will be with me through it all.
and in love, i have so far failed to find that one person to share it all with. sure i have fallen for someone very recently, i am not sure it will ever become a flame that burns at both ends, but it is nice to know that someone does exist out there that could truly make me happy. i mean funny, creative, talented, wonderfully nice, generous and not to mention adorable to the max; i used to think that that combo was a myth, but i gained more than a higher education in my first year of college; i found faith.
i have faith in unconditional love from friends, finding someone that is everything i want and not having to settle, but most of all, i have faith in myself. i will not let these problems defeat me. i am stronger and i will persevere.
i will find peace and i will find love.
a very amazing and intelligent boy once said: "il y a seulemente deux choses que je veux de la vie; et ils sont l'amour et paix."
there are only two things i want of life; and they are love and peace. that is the one sentence that defines my life. that is really all i want. with any luck, i will someday find both. but these times and the world we live in are slowly trying to make this dream as far from reality as it can possibly be.
but with that said, until the end, i will remain audacious, tenacious and hopeful.
never give up. never back down. always have faith.
i refuse to let anyone get the best of me.
i am the best of me. |
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[May. 4th, 2008|12:54 am] |
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ohhhh life can be tricky...
i cant help but say that i really think i have fallen for someone. like biggggg time. i am to the point where i really don't know how much longer i can keep it to myself. i really just want to do the whole cliche thing and "shout it from the roof tops." lame, i know.
but the truth is, when you have this feeling, it begins to feel like a burden to hold it inside. you no longer want to carry the weight alone. you want to share it with that person. you want to let that person in on your secret. you want to feel like everything that you have been working towards may actually have a happy ending.
for me, i feel like this feeling has been a looong time coming. i noticed him around the beginning of winter quarter and simply wished to get to know him better. he seemed like the kind of guy that would be a wonderful addition to my list of best friends. he was fun, unbelievably nice, humorous, intelligent, and just all around fun to be near.
as time went on, we became closer, doing lots of things together. being able to do the most mundane tasks yet still manage to make it more fun than it could be. slowly i began to see things panning out to be a lot more than friendship in our cards. i wanted to be with him all the time because there was something about him that just made me feel happier, lighter, and more complete.
the similarities between us are unquestionable. our commonalities are uncanny. our interests mirrored each other.
i feel like we can do anything together and find a way to enjoy ourselves. i feel like he can bring out the best in me. i feel like, with him, there will never exist a horrible day again.
most of all, i see some of my greatest happiness in his hands.
now unfortunately, i see a lot of my love directed towards him.
its only unfortunate because these things are so unpredictable, so open-ended, the future is unwritten.
could he be the one? maybe, but only time will tell... |
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| happily never after? |
[Mar. 16th, 2008|12:16 am] |
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sometimes i wonder if things ever work out for me...life always seems to get my hopes up just so these hopes can be crushed. it seems to give me signs that are nothing but empty actions. it seems to make me feel like one thing is going to happen just so it can trick me into thinking that my happiness is just around the corner. life can be a many splendid things but it can also be a totally ridiculously cruel thing.
as i have made very clear to everyone over these last few weeks, i am 100%, head over heels, tripping over myself, falling for someone; someone that i truly never thought i could find. he seems so perfect for me in every way. he is adorable, sweet, funny, nerdy, lovely, , intelligent, , artistic, nice, fantastic, amazing, adorable, and just...himself. there is no one else that could be like him. he is so genuine and original. He is really one of the best people that i have ever met.
we seem to have so much in common. at least from my perspective. i have fun with him no matter what situation. studying, eating, walking, singing, dancing...it doesnt matter what is going on, i never ever forget that i am with one of the best people that i know.
on top of all these fabulous traits, he is just so cool. he never thinks that he is above anyone else. he is one of the most real people ever. i cant think of a single person that has ever said a mean thing about him because i am not sure that he has a mean bone in his body. he is just a really good person.
but of course this just seems to be way too good to be true. in the past, these things just dont work out for me. something always gets in the way. there is always a fork in the road, with two really difficult choices. is it worth it to put myself out there so that my feelings are clearly known? or should i go for the whole self-preservation thing and keep my feelings inside? for some reason i always pick the latter. but now i wonder if that is the way to go. it hasnt worked in the past for me so should i continue with this mode of action or change it up a bit and put my heart on the line?
it is that last line that always keeps me from going ahead with things...
i guess i just hope that somehow i can send all the right messages and do all the right things so that person will just know. i hate that vulnerability thing. it is much easier to just keep it all to myself so that when things dont pan out how i would want, i dont feel ridiculous.
well lately i have been wondering if maybe i should just go for it. he is the kind of person that i would be willing to put it out there for. he seems to be just that perfect. problem is, i think that all these feelings could be one-sided or at least no where as strong as mine are. STORY of my LIFE!
i need to know what will become of this. i need to know what i need to do. i need to look within myself to find the answer. i need to figure things out.
i need to know, will things ever work out the way i want?
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[Mar. 9th, 2008|12:14 pm] |
Well, yesterday was probably one of my best days thus far.
it alllll started with the zoo trip. anyone that knows me knows that i am one the most true, through and through animal lovers that did ever live on this planet. therefore, i love the zoo with all todo mi corazon. on top of just going to the zoo, we were actually given a tour. i mean i got a picture with a camel and i got to pet it. it was so fun, until it started drooling all over the place. hehe!
and even more amazing is the people that i got to go with. i couldnt have imagined it to be anymore fun then that...it was simply...amazing. ;]
then i come back and it is a night out, off campus with some of my newest best friends. these people are some of THE most amazing people that i have met in my entire life. i am so lucky to have them all in my life. they are making college that much better for me...
and as soon as we return from dinner and shopping, it is off to watch I AM LEGEND at pc theater. that is quite possibly the creepiest/saddest movie that i have ever seen. imagine being all alone...and then losing the only thing that offered companionship. HORRIBLE! but it was such a good movie, though i am not sure that a movie has ever made me jump so much. hahah.
then a nice little friendly game of BANG! in the study lounge.
it may have been a one of the most tiring days of my life, but i really cant think of anything that could have made it bad.
life is good right now...:] |
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[Mar. 3rd, 2008|09:21 pm] |
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boys are a subject that i really hadn't been giving much thought to for many reasons. every time i do meet someone that is a possibility, it just isn't good timing. so for that reason, i basically gave up.
but recently, i have noticed a certain someone that makes me have that excited-to-see-you, wanna hang out always, buterflies in the stomach, tingly tummy feeling, and i must say...it is feelin' pretty good.
i have known this person for a few months now and never really saw it like that, but lately it just feels good. it really started as that friend thing. you know, when you just have so much fun with someone that you just want to spend all day with them. that turns to all week. then suddenly, you can't really think of someone that you would rather spend time with.
welp, that is how it happened to me...
he cracks corny jokes [like me], sings randomly [like me], laughs at all things [like me] and is all around, one of THE nicest boys i have ever come into contact with. he really is everything that i have ever said i wanted in a boy.
when i start to think about it, i realize that he is someone that truly meets everything that i look for in a person. he is intelligent, has the best sense of humor, would sing silly songs with me and treat me the way that i truly deserve to be treated. he just really seems perfect. as stephanie puts it, "he seems like a boy that finally deserves my attention." haha. oh how i love that girl.
i get to hang out with him every day and it never seems awkward, its all just natural. even when we are belting igrid michaelson as a duet while playing DISNEY scene it. [haha (: ] we are gonna dance the hip hop together. we are going to take a love and sex in the middle ages seminar. we have a cartoon to prove that we are perfectly suited for one another. :]
i guess one would say that i am thinking about this all too much, but i am truly just excited to have a real, bona fide crush on someone that so far seems to bea pretty darn good match for me.
so here's hoping that he feels the same way. :]
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[Feb. 28th, 2008|09:28 pm] |
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well i guess this is my very first entry in this thing we call livejournal.
i remember my young days, you know way back in the day [ :) haha]. those were the days when acid washed jeans were the shit, the power rangers were my heroes [i mean they still are, but that is beside the point.], cartoons were my weekend plans, and coloring was my homework.
i always had a pretty little diary and made sure i wrote something in it daily. nothing was really out of the ordinary. a new little friend, the extra gold star on an assignment, the amazingness of the peanut butter and jelly sandwich that my mom made and put into my little mermaid lunch box. life was so simple, yet so beautiful.
the very idea of having an online journal sort of defies everything that i used to know. i am not even sure that the internet really existed back then. at least not to the extent that it does now. it is so evident of the world that we that we live in nowadays. everything revolves around electronics and technology. in fact, it is really hard to find a good paper journal these days. but i am not going to complain about automatic spell check that comes with this one. ; ]
everyone and everything is so fast paced and there is never enough time to just sit around and enjoy life as much anymore. being a new college student, the real world has set in and i fully accept all this new found responsibility, but it can be overwhelming. i mean i am almost finding it hard to believe that i am even finding time to write this.
i guess what i am really getting at is that the old days were wonderful and i wouldn't trade them for anything in the world. they have helped to define my actions. they prepared me to handle everything that i am faced with currently. they have made me who i am.
they have also taught me to appreciate everything that is happening now. i was so nervously/excitedly/ scared for college but i am making friends that could not be any more amazing than they are.
sure i miss the past and wish sometimes that life was back to that simplistic, wonderful time, but when i really think about it, i realize that everything from the past just helps lead me to the future. a future that seems to be getting more and more fantastically exciting as each day passes. so here's to the future.
i think i am gonna like this whole journal thing... :]
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